Personal desire

In front of me, there are two things.

'Single Variable Calculus' and a 128GB memory chip.

I want to go out of the dorm, and photograph various wildlife around. But the fact that calculus quiz awaits for me pulls me back to my seat. Autumn is a great season for photographing, because the vegetation is full grown, the sunlight is intense, and the insects has reached their adult state. Furthermore, autumn is a season which various migratory birds pass through Korea and various flowers bloom. 

Why can't I go outside?

Last year, I always went out with my camera, regardless of the quizzes and tests. But this year, something had changed, and I just couldn't simply grab my camera and go out. I think that it's because the pressure around me had intensified, and it just suppresses my personal desire. 

 I don't know what to do, but the best thing is to finish my work quickly and then do what I want to do.